SHE.

She's not close minded as most of you assume
She's just afraid of jahanams's fume,
That's why she doesn't put that perfume
She cherish that 'piece of cloth' that she's wearing
She doesn't pay attention to what she's hearing
She tries to close her eyes to all the temptations she's seeing,
And late at night she tells her God all the things she's been concealing,
And yes her religion taught her how to treat a man but she's not allowed to practice this unless it's her man
She wears that skinny jeans in her home, and turns a blind eye to the whispers of shaytan
And yes she stops everything she's doing when it's the time of athan
See, that's her life, she's happy and relieved with it
So enough with the pointless speeches and also enough with the never ending preaches,
She's not a priest and even a priest is not perfect so have some mercy on her
She's just a human being that needs some teachings

A mysterious track

I'm on the track, walking, and sometimes running, I don't know where I'm heading to, but I'm almost certainly sure that a professional master is leading me to somewhere, somewhere that is better for me from any place that I ever wanted to be in. Sometimes the road is tough, and sometimes I get tired from running, and I'm only jogging, hardly catching some breath, but I keep going, knowing that it's all worth it. When I first started walking on that track I had a bunch of friends with me, but by time they disappeared, one after the other, until I was left alone, but I always felt that there's a divine help, a divine inspiration, that I'm very grateful for. I don't really know when I'll reach the final line, but I know that someday by His guide I'm gonna reach it, and in that very moment I'll remember that my struggles through the track is now paid off. This life is so unpredictable, and that's what gives it a meaning. Don't try to guess what's your next destination, just let things be, and concentrate in your current track.

The strongest muscle

For some reasons I came to believe that the heart is the strongest muscle in the body, it can absorb so many calamities yet still survive, it gets the worst kind of hurt and scars and it heals with time, it loses the beloved ones and despite that, it never stops from doing it's job, bumping blood for the whole body. It's the casualty of this materialistic world, that's why the only thing that keeps it alive is Allah's remembrance, therefore, without remembering Him our hearts face the worst kinds of pain, it becomes so sick close enough to death, but the only doctor who can cure it is the very one we strayed away from. We think that a song or something new we buy will make us happy and just cure the disease, but no! It's just like the analgesic that drugs the pain for a while, but still doesn't make it fully recover. Only being by the side of Allah is what gives the heart a true life. Stick to Allah and never go astray.

An attribute of life

Everything in this life is unpredictable, and I find this relieving at times but also worrying in another times, but I just imagined if we knew everything that's going to happen to us or our loved ones, life would've been so meaningless, like no one would even make duaa cause we already know what's going to happen, we wouldn't feel the sweetness of wanting something so badly and making duaa for it and the happiness of getting it or even getting what's better, we wouldn't feel how Allah can get us out of the worst situations because of that duaa we made while praying Qiyam, we wouldn't feel any of this. Life would've been so cold. So not knowing what's going to happen in the future, or tomorrow, or even the very coming minute is a mercy from Allah. He doesn't want us to be worried about what's going to happen, it's not our business, He's the best planner, He plans everything for us and manifests it perfectly. All we have to do is to make sure we did everything possible, and after that, after we've got nothing else to do, the result is not our thing. We should never worry about the results, cause sometimes worrying about the results makes us so distracted from concentrating on what we should do.

This life is unpredictable and will always be, this attribute won't change, so don't waste your time questioning about what's next.

لا تسألوا عن أشياء إن تبد لكم تسؤكم.

Bottom line: do the best and leave Him the rest.

Don't be a perfectionist

We keep saying that this life isn't perfect, and that it'll never be, but we don't really deal with it in the that way.
We're always excepting things to be perfect, we're always excepting people and ourselves to be perfectionists, but that will never happen. This is reality and we need to accept it.
Nothing will be perfect, an outing won't be perfect, a little thing will happen that'll make you a little upset, a piece of writing won't be perfect, most probably you'll always find a mistake in it, your life partner won't be perfect, your best friend won't be perfect, your family will have it's own flaws, it's just the way this life is.
In order to survive it you need to cope with this fact, accept it.
Just because a place is very neat doesn't mean that there will be no dust, it can't be.
And it's the dust that really makes you distinguish between what's neat and clean and what's not.
The flaws in this life is just like the dust in the neat place, it make you appreciate what you have cause without flaws and shortcomings this life would've been so meaningless.

Is it Allah or people?

Lately I noticed that our problem is that we wait for people's approval on what we do and how we act, and based on that approval we start to give the marks whether what we did was good enough or not. We wait for them to like our status on facebook, retweet our tweets on twitter, comment and like our photos on instagram and based on these likes, comments, and retweets we start to rate what we wrote, so if I write something that's really good and it didn't get that much approval I put it on the shelf and eliminate it completely. We wait for them to tell us they like that suite, dress, or pants and based on that approval we tend to also eliminate the clothes that didn't get much approval.
This way of thinking and dealing with things will get us nowhere but less self-confident as we wait for others to give us their impression and based on the impression we start build our confidence, secondly we leave no room for Allah's approval as we should only really care about what He says not what anyone else say and He should be the only source of our self-confidence. Think twice and thrice about your intentions before doing anything and see if you care about people's approval most or Allah's.

Invasion

When life takes over and invades your heart, when your concerns becomes so materialistic to an extent that you almost forgot your sole purpose, you almost forgot Allah.
when your heart is burdened by all the unspoken words, all the hidden secrets, and all the desires and temptations
when your soul is starving for a spiritual boost and though you need that boost badly you still can't go ahead and start boosting it
when all your features switch within seconds from happy to sad and vice versa, you start questioning yourself what's wrong with you or what's the reason behind these swings, you keep repeating this question over and over again, but no answer found..
When distraction hunts you in every path that you don't know where to go and what to hold firmly to
when you're being ask what's wrong and you don't specifically find the answer that suits your situation
when you feel the suffocation in your heart that you can't take it anymore, you're fed up with almost everything and you're done with holding anymore grudges
Without exaggeration, the best remedy for all of this is the Quran and prayer, get it all out to Allah and you'll be more than relieved. Stop seeking help from other than Him.

DO SOMETHING!

Time is rushing by us and we're standing still in our place, frozen. Doing absolutely nothing about it.
It's like we take a step forward then go ten steps backwards, and if we ask ourselves on a scale from 1 to 10 how active we're the answer would probably be 1 or even less..
But until when are we going to be so lazy, procrastinating everything, and delaying today's work to tomorrow and being in such a mess! until when? when are we going to have a real talk with ourselves that starting from now, this very moment, we'll a have a real change!
Everyone has a message that needs to be delivered to the whole world, Allah didn't create you in vain, all you need to do is to have a talk with yourself and keep searching within your mind and find your own beliefs, interests, and talents then start strengthening them by taking courses or reading books or whatever you can do then deliver what you believe in to the whole world (but first you need to make sure that what you believe in is far away from any extremism)
If you want to be worthwhile you need to work very hard to attain that goal, and with the first moment of victory I can foretell that you'll hate the life of procrastination and laziness
It's never too late as long as you're still breathing and nothing is impossible if you believe in Allah first and then in the potential that you can do whatever you want by Allah's help and will.
Start from now before it's too late, let the whole world witness your very unique fingerprint (:

Keep trying

Being different is hard, trying to make a radical change is even harder
Trying to be positive in a negative field is hard, very hard sometimes
Trying to be righteous in a corrupted community is hard
Trying to to accept every reality is tiring
Trying to dismiss every criticism and move on is also tiring
Some things are so tiring but a must, we can never stop trying and it's expected that in every try will be a bruise that will remind us of how we suffered and how we won at last
We need to hold on in the times of grief and misery to taste how sweet happiness and triumph is
In the process of trying to reach whatsoever you want, don't listen to people's opinions cause most of them ain't even valid
Select your goal and work very hard for it, try the best you can do
Be ready for every battle and wear your shield
And whether what you wanted was manifested or not be very happy that you at least tried, and then try over and over again
Always remember that nothing is impossible and never lose hope. Never.
Stay strong (':

The very thing that lasted

I was just wondering what's the very thing that lasted with me since birth until now, and I realized it was not friends, not family, not good circumstances I was caught up to, not my best friends, not the most year I loved at the school, not my best outfit, and not the laughters, nothing lasted. Only Allah. He was with me since I was born, witnessed every action I used to do, took care of me when I was a child and continued taking care of me when I grew up and witnessed me not taking care of His obligations, and He lasted, He witnessed me doing nothing to thank Him, and He lasted, He witnessed me doing sins without repainting, and He lasted, He witnessed me being a total mess, and He lasted, He witnessed me running after dunya, and He lasted, He witnessed me worshiping the gifts and blessings He gave me and not worshiping Him, and He lasted, He witnessed me crying over what didn't last, and He lasted. He lasted when nothing lasted.

A random thought

I found it something profound that whenever I get attached to anything Allah takes it away. It's like He's sending me an indirect message telling me “don't depend on worldly life, nothing lasts. Don't let these dependencies define you and define your inner state, whether it's happiness or sadness.” and this Ayah hit me كل من عليها فان ويبقي وجه ربك ذو الجلال والإكرام
We always depend on what's temporary, struggling to make this life jannah. When it's not, and will never be.
It suffocates us and goes against our nature that this life is imperfect, and that's why we have to seek what's perfect to fill that inner void. We've to seek Allah. Otherwise, we'll always keep breaking. Break after another, until we learn the attributes of this life and deal upon it.
Yasmin Mogahed used a brilliant metaphor about attachments, she said: 'like a glass vase that you place on the edge of a table, once broken, the pieces never quite fit again. However the problem wasn't the vase, or even that the vases kept breaking. The problem was that I kept putting them on the edge of tables.'
اللهم انزع حب الدنيا من قلوبنا ولا تجعلها أكبر همنا.